This last month has been nothing less than a roller coaster of emotions for Brian and I.
As you all know, I have been going through some tummy issues, come to find out ... We were pregnant! First emotion. SCARED! Second. Overjoyed. Not that we were planning another baby, but we welcomed the surprise with open arms and hearts.
After two ultrasounds, we found out that this wasn't a "typical" pregnancy. We just didn't have all the answers yet, still had "hope".
More tests done. More stress. More waiting. ... Less hope.
Tests came back. I was having a belighted ovum pregnancy. I was 12 weeks pregnant. With a gestational sac that stopped growth at 7 weeks.
Monday my HCG levels were 49,464. Wednesday 47,278. With numbers that high, my body wasn't taking to the miscarriage naturally. That also meant. My hormone levels were still high and making me feel VERY pregnant. Still sick, still cravings. Everything was there except the baby.
The hardest thing emotionally that I have EVER had to go through.
Thursday was my D&C. The first few days were very difficult for me. Physically but more emotionally than anything.
Everyday gets a little better.
... And I definitely couldn't have gotten through ANY of this with out my wonderful husband and family and friends, you all are such a HUGE support system for me. You have no idea! I love you all, and thank you. Even for your thoughts for us at this time.
